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Friday, September 25, 2009

Hmmm.... its 3.09am now and I cant believe im still awake. not at all tired or sleepy. But instead, still got the mood to come here and blog..

Was thinking if i should just delete tis blog. Cos im kinda lazy to come here and update often. Ended up it makes my blog looked so dead boring, which I hated. Secondly, I dun even know if there are readers to my blog. Felt so meaningless for the effort to upload pictures and to update this and that.

So, I was thinking of having a real journal instead. Then I can really jot down whatever I like. Be it about my everyday life experiences or problems. 'cos im not one who would express my thoughts/problems over here.

Even toward friends, I dun do tat too. I'd probably only share my happiness with them. I dun know, I jus felt weird if I do. Or maybe its becos I haven found someone I feel comfortable enough to do tat. Except for bf. He's the only one whom i'd share my whatever problems with. I'm glad there's still him :)

But sometimes, I wished to have a friend whereby I can talk abt whatever things to. I have one though, but not to the extent I'm comfortable enough to share everything. Yes, my everything here means e v e r y-t h i n g. Be it about sth very personal or secrets or gossips abt who n who. Hahaha.

...recently, my life started to became meaningless. So much so that it is boring me to the MAX. I seriously think its a need to find a job soon. Temp or whatever. Bf is able to come home from camp everyday. The thing is, he leaves camp at 5.30pm and will reach home abt 6 plus 7pm. I would travel to his hse, have dinner with him, chat/watch tv for awhile, then its abt time for him to sleep. And I would then have to travel back home. Not that I was complaining tat few hours with him, but the fact that I got to take bus home alone is damn lonely to me. So i'd been taking cab home for the past 2 days. Today we didnt meet. If not its the 3rd :p

Oh ya, last mon was bf's 21st. I had planned a last min surprise for him. Becos I was sick 2 days in advance. @#$%^&* Anw, it didnt turn out very successfully I would say. And I dun feel like elaborating it further here either. I had decorated a birthday cake for him though. Hope that he really loves the cake! That would be enough for me :)

okie.. nth more to blog abt. Haha. It's been a long long post ya! Time to sleep. Would be going town and bugis wif sis later on. Oh ya, I've uploaded my bday photos on fb already. So i've decided not to post it here.

~Tml is friday! I love weekends now cos bf doesnt have to go back camp and thus has all the time to spend on me! hehe :D

4:08 AM simplicity! x3